Sometimes it's not all about looks.

You know, I think the best time for me to blog when I'm half sober, and of course, when I feel no one is watching.

Previously I met a group of girlfriends whom I dont meet that much. And well, this group is more of the intellectual kind who talk about cars la, property la, career la etc. While I'm not very bothered by such stuff, because basically,

property? I dont know much, my hubby takes care of it.
Car? Ok I got one which is running.
Career? I got the sameeee one which has been running for more than 10 years. Imagine the sickness...

So I'm pretty ok with it.

But the thing lies with...whenever 1 became toooooo interested in the ....say...bag I'm carrying...(property or car doesnt change that fast)...I became very...embarrassingly uneasy. So the meeting went planned at XXX place and I was running late! So I grabbed the bag I was last using, checked the impulse to wear my beloved ring which my hubby gave me recently and rushed out of the house.

In the group of 4, 1 was openly admiring my bag while I was admiring hers..while the other 2 remained pretty silent.

Expected.

Thank god I didnt wear my ring.

It wasnt over 1 carat or anything, it was merely a small token from my hubby YEARS AFTER we are married! Till now, I still dont understand why. It's not as if I'm the type who will refuse his proposal if the diamond is less than 1 carat(his was). It really wasnt necessary, but of course I was really touched by his sweet gesture. But, because I care so much about my dear friends' feelings, I deliberately dont wear the ring that I hold dear. Not because of how much it's worth but because of how much those friendships worth to me.

Hubby joked, "Since you cared so much about your friends' feelings, then next time I buy you a cheap one lah."

Lol.

Sometimes I feel life's so hard. So hard for someone who cares more than she should. And because girls are really SUCH a difficult bunch.

Just few days ago, I was complaining to a gf that I was so sick of girls around me who play mindgames, like all the timeeeee. Common, we are not 17 anymore!!! We are like...erm...okie...of mature age. *kekeke* Some of them are married somemore.

I JUST name 1 example.

It has been a long time since our group meet up B(guy) so I message B on a wednesday like "hey are you free this friday? If so, I can jio the others out, like X(girl) and Y(girl) etc."

His reply was "Oh I'm not free coming friday but didnt Y(girl) said we're meeting next friday already?"

I was like thinking...hmmm....Y(girl) didnt mentioned to me at all, but well it's okie, so I replied to B(guy) and said, "Ok nevermind next week see how".

Obviously I didnt receive any messages following the week, I didnt bother much too. I have more than enough friends who love to meet up. Frankly speaking, I already know Y(girl) meant to exclude me from the outing so I'm not one to pursue too much; I'm the kind who will..silently retreat to the dark. HAHAHA.

But coming friday, somehow B(guy) messaged me and asked me if I'm coming. Seriously I told him frankly I received no such invite.

He then told me, " Y(girl) told me that she asked all of you and you all are are busy...so I'm only meeting her alone tonight."

Imagine my response is like HAHAHA please go enjoy your 2 people world, in slightly different words but I told him flatly that Y(girl) did not ask me at all and she probably prefer some ME time with HIM. Kekeke. But B(guy) was like...hey common we all are friends bla bla.

Anyway, I dont care much about it but was merely amused by Y(girl)'s antics. I know we're all friends but well....I dont know WHY she got so particular about meeting B alone OR nOt wanting me to join(she usually include the other girls, just except me). But I was very particular about thwarting Y(girl)'s plans about meeting B alone. I dont like to be a spoilsport.

However, stupid B(guy) went to ask Y(girl) can ask ME along ornot? Y(girl) said yes.
THEN, he told me SHE said YES.

Seriously, how stupid can a guy get???

FAINT!!

OF COZ if you asked her like this, of coz she said YES lah!!

So with that, B began hounding me to join their mini get-together, much to my disgust. I used all sorts of excuses to reject for few hours only to surrender eventually because my heart is so soft.

Despite so, I purposely reached 1.5hrs LATER(I'm usually punctual OK!) just because I wanna give THEM PRIVATE time. HAHAHA!


So..it was expected that when I arrived, Y(girl) said "Aiyoooo pleaseee lah, dont be sooo sensitive cannnn...I was really busy so I didnt really jio everybody etc".

But well....we...listen 就好 okie.

So I was telling my gf this tale and she too agreed this gf got too much 心机。

I thought she was soooo understanding.

Suddenly in the midst of our chill out, she said wanna take a picture. I was like okie sure, although I wasnt really into taking pics being camara-shy, but I thought well maybe she is very satisfied with her extensive plastic surgery in Korea and wanted to take pics together. As much as I'm soooo much far more inferior...sigh......I obliged. Friendship is meant more than that right?

After she took the pic, I glanced at it and asked her to send me. I was checking my whatsapp and FB stuff for like a good 5minutes and I still didnt receive that only picture. I became bored as she was super engrossed with her hp. Only then did I ask her, "You sent already? Didnt receive anything leh." She said, "Wait"

Naturally I was puzzled as it was really a long while, "Are you sending?". Finally cant restraint my curiosity and leaned over to peep.

She was editing (only)herself in our picture with some beauty app.

I was like "Oh common.....". She became slightly paiseh and said lately her skin had been acting up and she usually looked better in selfies and bla bla bla.

After awhile, she sent me our picture. Zzz.

She is reallyyyyy very pretty already, ESPECIALLY after her plastic surgery, really dont get what's her point. I'm no where being pretty, I think it's just her sense of security.

But seriously, I'm really SO SICK of all the girls' 心机, about who is more well-liked, who is more popular, who is prettier etc. Moreover, I've never intended to post the pictures as I dont like to post pictures of me drinking on my FB. She on the other hand, asked me if she can post the edited picture as she finds me "quite pretty" in that edited picture.

I was like rolling my eyes.

Frankly speaking, arent you living a tad too tiring if you always care about looking prettier than your friends etc? If I AM, I would have committed suicide a long time ago. I have super gorgeous friends, somehow. Maybe opposites attract or I give them tons of confidence. HAHAHA!!

Anyway, now I merely stick to my own types, who dont care about all these. Frankly, really a handful.


It's kinda ridiculous I'm always embroiled into such complications all the time.


These girls have to understand, sometimes it's not all about looks in life.